Medical Oncologist

My Dad had the appt with the MO today. It's not too good. He feels my Dad is symptomatic already. Which is what we have feared and the PCP was unsure about. He will be undergoing several tests over the next couple of weeks to see where the cancer is and if we can see it yet. Bone scan, MRI and something else that I can't remember right now. The MO wants him to do 18 months of chemotherapy coupled with 18 months of hormone therapy. :( He's so miserable already. I can't imagine what he's going to go through for the next year and a half. Hot flashes, hair loss, nausea, vomiting, breast tissue growth, osteoporosis...etc. I just am at a loss. This is the bad thing we didn't want to think about. This is the way we prefered not to think about it. The way you decide... "Well, I'm not going to think about it until I know if it is going to happen. There's no sense getting myself worked up about it if I don't know yet if it's going to happen."

I'm so sad for my Mom and my Dad. I'm sad for me and my girls. I'm just sad and hating the world again. Back to crying and screaming why?! in the shower again...